Christmas 2008

Ahh... Quiet and relaxing white Christmas I had. Yes, I was alone. Of course, I did hang out with some friends who are around, which I truly appreciate their company. Shopping during Boxing Day wasn't as great as I expected. There weren't much sales, and there weren't much things to shop for, pretty dull and boring.

With so much time, I got myself to do some workout in the evenings. Even though I was at home, I still manage to get some serious workout done. =D Yes, muscle ache and sore shoulder, I still would like to get more workout in today. Six packs, here I come!! Or eight packs maybe? =p

What else I did? Hmm... I played foosball with Adrian, which is nice; I managed to clean up my house as well; watched the Curious Case of Benjamin Button, which was a great movie; best of all, won some money playing poker! =p Hey hey, a straight beat pair 10s anytime, doesn't it? Won some cash and dignity, and I feel great! =D

Well, back to work tomorrow after the nice long weekend. I am invited to join a few good friends to Minnesota over the New Year, and I am seriously contemplating it. Money and work is the main factor; on the other hand, friendship and holiday. Hmm... What should I do? Go, don't go? Will see, making the decision tomorrow...

Sadness...

Gosh, I am bored and lonely. Really. =(

I thought I will be ok after sending you off, and I was, till I was all alone when you got on the plane to Japan. Calls from you before you board the plane helped me kill my loneliness a while, but once I realize that it will be at least till tomorrow that I hear from you, the lonely feeling creep up on me.

I guess not doing much at home and being alone really encourage sadness. Add in the fact that almost everyone will be gone for holiday, including my housemates, my loneliness and sadness really haunt me. Just a few hours and I am missing your voice and your presence beside me. I really can't wait till I hear your voice tomorrow!

I really hope working tomorrow will ease the pain, but I start to have doubt against that. Tomorrow is a crucial day at work, and hopefully that can take my mind off missing you for a while. Really, I don't want to screw up tomorrow. =\

I need someone to come accompany me to ease this feeling, I need a good friend who can cheer me up, anyone? Have I been a good friend lately? I do hope so and also hope that I have good friends out there who will be willing to do something with me.

Sigh... I wonder how can I sleep tonight... I miss you my dear... =(

Finals is OVER!! =p

Yahooooo!! Finals is over for this semester!! Whether or not I screwed up for finals is not a question for the time being. =p Time to enjoy and relax now!! =D

Where should I go? What should I do? Hmm... That's some challenging question I must say! Well, all I know now is that I will be free these few days, after that I will be working. So I must enjoy whatever holiday I have!! =p

Let's hope there will be some fun activity coming up for me!! I don't want to waste these few precious holiday!! =p And also hopefully I can get some pictures or posts up here... =D Ciaoz!

Zzzzz.....

Finals... Zzzzzz.... Sigh...

So bored. So much to study, so little mood to do it... Why why??

Someone give me some motivation please!! =(

Amazing weekend!

I had an amazing weekend. Amazing.

First up, we went out for dinner at a German restaurant and bar. Dinner was fine, everyone shared a huge platter, and we get to sample a bit of everything, including their famous pork shank, which was very good. A few sips of beer to wash down the food and we head over to the next location.

The next location, Iowa's very own local casino, Praire Meadows. Yeap, I am making full use of my legal age now!! I played a little poker at the poker room, which is a pleasant experience. No, I did not win any money, but at least I know what it feels like to play in the casino.

After that, we went to the Grand Piano Bistro. I got myself a bottle of beer, and we managed to get a table in the filled bistro. Just as we were chatting over a beer, two guys went up the stage to continue their piano duet. Playing songs requested from the audience, they were a blast. I must say, understanding between them is amazing. While one is entertaining the crowd, the other one is playing some background music; they even know when they want to stop and let the crowd sing along! Wonderful. I really enjoyed it, not because of the alcohol, which I only had one bottle of beer, but because of the live performance and the atmosphere.

The next day, I head over to my boss place. The best part, I got to learn how to shoot a gun!! Two gun as a matter of fact. First is a small calibre gun, easy to handle, easy to hit the target. It was a rifle, and it was quite fun. After a few rounds, we up the fire power. We shot a 9mm Glock, and it was amazing. Squeeze the trigger, hear the shot, hit the target, exhilarating!! And yes, the bullet shell is what I took for souvenier, something for me to remember my first time ever shooting a gun.

To sum out such an amazing weekend, we had some pho tai bo vien (vietnamese beef noodles) after some wrestling and MMA. It was wonderful, and by far the best weekend for this whole semester! =D

孤单，寂寞，勇气，伤害。。。 =(

好就没用话语写一篇“作文”了。。 不知如何，今天我有点想用华语来表达我的心情。

今天，一大清早就开始下雪，真的是令我感觉很孤单，寂寞。有时真的会觉得自己很傻: 明明知道是错，知道是会受伤害，但我还埋着头，继续错下去。。。 可能这是我盲目的一边吧，也许这是我骗自己的梦想，但我很清楚知道这条路将来是会让我自己感得很痛苦。

可能今早在巴士上听着悲伤的歌曲吧，所已我才想太多，或许应该说我想得比较仔细。。 无论如何，我已经是可以猜测到将来会发生什么事。。可能这样也好，至少可以给我一个心理准备。。

是不是太多时间和下雪的关系令我想这些我不想要面对的事情，我不太清楚。。。 但是昨天的谈话令我深深的想我是否应该这么做。。答案我还不太清楚，但是我可以对自己说这会是一个很难很难做的事情。。 一边的我不想放手，另一边就知道越早放手越好。。。唉，叫我应该如何呢？？

当我在想这一回事的时候，我还记得第一次见到她。当时我么不认识对方，不过后来有机会认识，不知不觉地我就傻傻的变到今天的地步。。

可能我应该学过路人，选美好的回忆，把伤心的一切从今抹掉。但是我有没有这一股勇气呢？我还不知道... anyone care to help?

Fall Break

Man, another long absence again! Seriously, I don't want this to happen, but sometimes I am too tired to blog, sometimes too busy, or sometimes just plain too bored. Well, there's nothing much to blog about when I am bored. But, here I am now, writing another post yet again.

Fall break is here, and today I went paintball, organized by International Student Association. We went to the same place as last time, and I had quite some fun. Yeap, two bruises only this time, but still bruises are bruises. Lol.

But then again, the bruises are just part of fun. Being able to relax and get myself away from school and work is the main thing to do today. Bored and tired, some activity which I don't get to do often is always welcome. =p

Man. Utd. won 4-0 this morning! Wonderful. Sadly I didn't get to watch it because I went for paintball, but it wasn't too bad after all.

As for now, I am ready to get some rest, chillax with some shows and dinner, and get back the sleep I lost! Lol. Adioz. =)