孤单，寂寞，勇气，伤害。。。 =(

好就没用话语写一篇“作文”了。。 不知如何，今天我有点想用华语来表达我的心情。

今天，一大清早就开始下雪，真的是令我感觉很孤单，寂寞。有时真的会觉得自己很傻: 明明知道是错，知道是会受伤害，但我还埋着头，继续错下去。。。 可能这是我盲目的一边吧，也许这是我骗自己的梦想，但我很清楚知道这条路将来是会让我自己感得很痛苦。

可能今早在巴士上听着悲伤的歌曲吧，所已我才想太多，或许应该说我想得比较仔细。。 无论如何，我已经是可以猜测到将来会发生什么事。。可能这样也好，至少可以给我一个心理准备。。

是不是太多时间和下雪的关系令我想这些我不想要面对的事情，我不太清楚。。。 但是昨天的谈话令我深深的想我是否应该这么做。。答案我还不太清楚，但是我可以对自己说这会是一个很难很难做的事情。。 一边的我不想放手，另一边就知道越早放手越好。。。唉，叫我应该如何呢？？

当我在想这一回事的时候，我还记得第一次见到她。当时我么不认识对方，不过后来有机会认识，不知不觉地我就傻傻的变到今天的地步。。

可能我应该学过路人，选美好的回忆，把伤心的一切从今抹掉。但是我有没有这一股勇气呢？我还不知道... anyone care to help?

PROcrastinator

Yes, I know this is quite a cliche topic, but I can't help but to rant something about this here. I have to admit, I am quite a procrastinator. A PRO(fessional)crastinator indeed!

Why am I saying that? Well, your dumb kiddo here actually forgotten to hand in his assignment!!

Yes people, we need to hand in IS 44 assignment online, and the deadline is at 9pm, Thursday. I actually completed the assignment on Monday, but didn't hand it in because I thought it may need some changes some where, and also purely I want to hand it in at the last minute possible.

Guess what? Actuarial Evening was on Thursday night. I was so caught up with all the preparation for the evening, attended the event all suited up, and came back well before 9pm as the event end at 7pm. But, this kiddo here actually went and chilled out in a friend's room, too lazy to walk all the way back to his room, and totally forgotten about the assignment.

At roughly 11pm, he happened to check the assignment website aka Blackboard, realized he has a quiz to take, and suddenly realized he haven't hand in his assignment. The link to hand in the assignment was long gone, and along with it goes the 15 marks. All he could do? Slap and laugh and blame himself for his stupidity. And because he scored a big fat 0, the class average dropped to 11 out of 15. What a b*^%$@#!

Well, maybe he has learnt his lesson this time, and will hand in his assignment well before the due date next time. But then again, he is so lazy that this post is actually 2 days late. Wonderful side of life, isn't it?

Want to see him all suited up for Actuarial Evening?

Never mind the slippers and shoes, he's in someone else's room.

There you go! Look at his face and you will know he is lazy. It is written all over his face, isn't it?

Another month to Paper FM/2, and he is still procrastinating. Can some body come and wake him up from his bed, and give him a big slap on the face? No? Zzzzzzzzzz...

On a side note, the moon here on the fifteen day of the eight month on the lunar calendar is as bright as the street lights! The moon appear bigger and brighter here than in Malaysia.